I was very angry this morning, and thru this anger, the LORD revealed something to me thru my wife, let me explain. Someone that I love and respect very much was hurting and has been hurting for awhile, and as my quiet anger swelled, all I can think of is PAYBACK, bringing my bite right to their doorstep and making them PAY, and even shared this with my wife. But she reminded me that as a follower of CHRIST, that has been given the gift of soberity, I should no longer be this way. Taking another look at it, she was right. So what was I REALLY mad at? I was angry because thru other people's behavior, I saw MYSELF and how I need to change, that my transformation into a new creature IS NOT COMPLETE and it's a life long process, I'm so humbled to have a partner in my life that can help me see these things.
As the saying goes, charity begins at home, dear Amy. Here's what I would do if I were you: gotta list all the things you actually CAN do something about, and then, the things you CAN'T. Then, among these things, what are about you, and what are about others. Start caring for the things that you can act upon that are about you; accept the ones you can't change, and after that, you care for your friends. For the moment. your needs of peace and time-off are most important; you want to be there for your friends, I get it, but if you slide too far in forgetting your own needs you won't even be able to be there for them. I know you are christian, and you surely know the serenity prayer; I'm not christian, but I was born from christian parents, and I remember fondly the words because I still find them to be so true. Big hugs to you.